Embarking on the lifetime journey of surrendering
Many spiritual teachings emphasize the importance of surrender as the gateway to an enlightened life. As abstract and radical as the idea of surrender is, it is enticing. Although there are plenty of resources that teach what surrender means and the mechanism of letting go, I still felt like I was driving a car without my glasses when it came to performing the act of surrendering. I was sitting in the driver’s seat; fear and the desperate hope for nothing bad to happen were the ones steering the wheel and hitting the break. After countless attempts to live a happy life by following the manual of how to surrender, I recognized I could not walk the path of heart intellectually. If anything, I had been denying the learning opportunities by reasoning and bypassing my emotions. I didn’t surrender and became one with the situation; I simply blocked the negative emotions and pretended they didn’t exist. Drowning in the ocean of frustration, this realization was the light of the beacon - I started swimming towards the shore. This time, it is not an act of self-preservation but a desire to see the beauty of life.
I recognize that surrendering is the learning of a lifetime. I am just beginning to scratch the surface of this art. Just like a puzzle, I’m collecting the pieces that will eventually reveal the totality of my being. It might take a long time or even eternity, but I will remember to play this game with a light heart and have fun.
1. The powerful magic of “I don’t know”
Surrender to me was equivalent to being defeated. There was always this uneasy feeling to even think about the possibility of surrendering to an unknown power that’s arranging my life. I believed firmly in - “I create my own destiny.” “I” as the flesh and bones living on Earth right now. After learning and accepting that there is so much more beyond what I am able to perceive in this physical world, I started to see who I am in a whole different way. The shift in perspective opened up another dimension within me. In a way, I was not wrong in thinking that I created my own destiny. The challenges and obstacles I experience are the pre-incarnate choices I made before entering Earth. I don’t remember what it’s like being an eternal being but that’s not relevant. My priority is to allow experiences to happen by admitting that “I don’t know.” I don’t know where this event is supposed to lead me to; I don’t know what lessons await for me in this incident. The only thing I know is that things must happen and things will happen - whether they are to my liking in that moment.
2. The Red-Ray Energy Body
I learned something interesting that helped me understand and navigate the natural resistance to many life events. In addition to our physical bodies, we receive vital energy from Earth through the Root Chakra. The energies that enter our physical bodies through the Root Chakra or the red-ray energy center include catalysts we experience. Catalysts are events or moments that spark the cycle of learning, understanding and accepting ourselves. A catalyst could be as simple as the sunrise that inspires us to give our best for the day; or it could be a significant event that pushes us to transform the way we think, how we see the world, etc. Survival is one of the energies the red-ray center handles. Human’s most primal instinct exists in this chakra.
Survival is all about fight or flight. It is about self-preservation and separation. The moment the energy enters our body, it is greeted by this self-preserving energy center. The most instinctual response is to fight, to reject and to change the experience so we can survive. When we stay in the mode of fight or flight, the red-ray energy center is blocked. It takes discipline and awareness for a person to consciously keep the red-ray energy center open so the energy can flow through the chakras to allow an experience to form, a lesson to learn or an epiphany to occur.
“...Light courses through you, not from you. There is no effort to being who you are. There is only the removal of blockage from the passage of light.” - Q’uo, channeled through L/L Research on Aug. 25, 2006
To be continued…
